I hear many people talk about the Alt lifestyle, BDSM, about what they need, what they want, how they love to be beaten, or gagged, or tied or bound,
covered in rubber or used like a slut, any manner of different scenarios and
situations that can be imagined or experienced.
But what is the essence of that need, what is it that makes you want an
alternative coupling more than any other kind of relationship?
What is it that makes you say, yes, heavens yes, that's what i want, that's
what i need from my Dom/me, from a relationship, for me....?
In my case, it is the 'undercurrent'.
That 'charge' that exists between a TPE Dom/me and Their sub at all times, not just during 'sceneing' or 'play' time.
Oh yes, there are those times when i want to be taken to a club or play party and beaten and used whilst all others who care to look in can view the
proceedings and gawp.
Where i will show to anyone and everyone how much i love my Dom/me, what i
will do, to make them happy.
There are those times when all i want is the privacy from prying eyes to
give myself in such ways that i could not even describe to another for fear
of their reaction, or my own chagrin..
But most of all, what i need more than anything else, are those times when
at an otherwise innocuous moment or in a totally innocuous place, doing
something terribly regular, i would be reminded of my place, who and what i
am and whom i belong to. How important i am to my Dom/me that they would
take the time to show me Their love.......
Those subtle little things that only another in a D/s relationship might even notice;
The tug on your hair to reign you in,
The bite on your ear, when you hoped for a kiss.
The slap on your face, that shows Their distaste.
That look in Their eye, that says 'no more'.
The charge between you that never goes away.
The smile on Their face whilst you are near.
The anticipation of not knowing what to expect.
The knowledge that others have no idea..
~ It is not about the pain,
~ Or the bondage
~ Or sex,
~ Although no one would say
~ These can't be the best.
~ It is about the mind,
~ That wonderful tool,
~ About love,
~ And the heart,
~ And a pairing so true.
~ It's an aura you sense that sets you apart,
~ A feeling you know will never depart,
~ A contract of souls forever and a day
~ When neither party need have anything to say.
It's not so much the obvious things
But the subtle ones that make my heart sing.
It is best when it is there, just between you, unsaid,
But as solid and binding as the collar around your neck.
©2006 chelsea
